Jumping

Ellen made it a point to go out on her porch whenever a fog rolled in. While she wouldn’t admit to having such ridiculous thoughts, it made her feel like she was alone just above the clouds.

Her house wasn’t the biggest out of the neighborhood. When the Fishers sold up all the farmland back in the forties, it was one of the first to spring out of the ground – right at the top of the only hill for miles.

It made the old home feel enormous.

She lived alone, though in her past she’d kept a husband and children under the aging oak beams. She kept the house like those people still lived there – she discovered early on that making a home completely yours is a quick way to loneliness.

Looking over the milky fog she saw where the road to town turned just before disappearing. She saw the darker outline of the woods behind the Sheriff’s metal roofed farmhouse.

He’d proposed to Ellen on her 58th birthday, five years after Sam passed.

“You always have a thing for me, or do you just feel bad that I’m up on this hill?”

“Well, Ellen, it just ain’t right for a woman to be alone in this big house,” he said in the farmer’s drawl she found to be as comfortable as old boots.

She refused kindly enough, though the refusal wasn’t enough to stop him from checking in on her, which Ellen appreciated.

The truth of it was Ellen didn’t mind the lonesomeness so much. Nobody to cook for, nobody’s bed to make or long-winded thoughts to listen to. If Ellen had the opportunity to live a second life immediately following her current one, she’d make it a point to only shack up with men when she felt the need for comfort but make sure she had a quiet, lonesome place to go to that was only hers to have.

Finishing her coffee, Ellen stood up from the porch and walked, barefoot, into the kitchen. Before she was even able to put the coffee cup into the sink she heard a car door click shut. Continue reading

Swallowing Against Hunger

When the hunger first hit, Clementine thought it felt like a stone in the middle of her stomach. It was uncomfortable but not horrible. It was new.

She went on like that for a while – the new stone pushing down on her gut and making the lungs feel bigger. Clementine thought she’d start getting dizzy, too, but that didn’t happen for a while.

After the first week she decided to walk around. The hunger went with her and changed. It made itself into a sharp rock – obsidian or quartz – and threw itself against her insides. She had to stop walking and squeeze herself just to get the hunger to stop moving around. She sucked her cheeks together and swallowed her spit to make it stop. She tried to fool her stomach. Continue reading

The View of the Moon from the Moon

The weird thing was the humming.

Everywhere he went – no matter if it was to the power grid just behind the living quarters or to the bathroom (when he didn’t feel like doing it in his own suit) – there it was, somewhere between a small engine and a woman clearing her throat.

The company was concerned at first about how much the humming would bother them. They ran some tests (pointless, considering that they were already on site) but found that the hum became familiar and wanted. Now the company was concerned about what it would be like when they came back to earth. Three years of humming and then nothing. Nevin imagined it’d be the same agitation as when he had to give up cigarettes. Maybe a little worse, as he’d have to listen to a recording of the hum to go to sleep, probably.

The mission itself was very simple: travel to the moon, run a series of simple, repeatable tests for a few universities, come home. Nevin got the job because of who he knew in the company. Paid well, and it wasn’t like he could spend anything until the end – which worked out wonderfully for him.

The tests involved two things: how simple physics work on alternate environments when the material is modified, and the long-term exposure to alternate environments on people. They said “humans” but Nevin preferred saying people. It made the tests seem friendlier. The first tests on material generally took only four or five hours a day, and the human tests only occurred once every two weeks. The majority of Nevin’s days remained open.

They did make it a point to test Nevin’s ability to entertain himself. For six months before the trip scientists from the company locked him in with the other two employees to go up. The room was in a warehouse that they could also venture into, but doing so required them to put on a spacesuit. Continue reading

What is Empty, What is Full

This is the second draft coming out of the workshop review and practicum. Lemme know.

 

“Don’t you think it’s a bit much? Getting rid of it I mean?” Dale asked.

Jason, next to Dale, looked at the wide mouth of the swimming pond.

Jason’s father made the pond as a gift to Jason’s mother some thirty years back. When he finished it, the pond was larger and deeper than either had expected.  It became something of a landmark for parties while Jason grew up–his father stringing lights across it and buying a small boat Jason used whenever he wanted to convince girls to make out. Kissing in the middle of a pond seemed more romantic.

So far it resisted Jason’s attempts to fill it with dirt, drain it with an industrial pump and, in his last attempt, dig a drainage ditch. Dale helped by providing stubborn encouragement and beer, but the only thing they succeeded in doing was making the pond look horrible.

The pond was a fixture of the place and knew it. Something about the way it was dug into the ground or the clay earth around it made the work nearly impossible. Jason thought it might be the ghost of his father making it difficult–not out of anger or dislike, but just to make his son work hard for something he wanted.

Jason understood, looking at the muddy and marred pond, why Dale was tired of trying. Jason was tired of trying, too. He’d spent nearly four months clawing and dredging and cursing at the pond. It needed to happen before the freeze, but he was beginning to suspect it simply wasn’t possible to do. Continue reading

Ways to Identify and Prevent Ghosts

At night you’re afraid to look through windows. Like most things which sound like an irrational fear, it comes from the way your father acted when you were still young and able to believe in the unbelievable.

The monster in the woods. The ghost living in the fireplace.

Your father strengthened the beliefs, the things he should have laughed away. Instead your father showed you scary movies and acted them out as a joke.

Knocking on the oil tank in the basement after The Haunting and scratching at your door. Now older you find it impossible to convince yourself an overused coat rack isn’t a broad-shouldered ghoul waiting to eat your legs.

You sleep with the lights on. You shoot awake at every creak or knock.

You never look through the windows at night.

It’s something you find hard to explain on the weekend trips to your father’s apartment. For one thing, it’s hard to say you’re afraid of the dark to anyone when you’re an adult. Add the awkwardness of telling your father it’s his fault, and it becomes impossibility. So you watch The Wolfman with him again and try to make it to the car afterwards without running. Continue reading